Apr
17
These Children Are Models
In short this post is a little brag on my kiddos.
Had you going for a second didn’t I?!? Honestly, we would have had a little family secret to be announcing this Christmas. Except things didn’t work out. Anyhow, I am happy to say that the four of us are happy and healthy regardless. Nate has been at his new job for almost a month and is pretty happy with it. I’m still teaching at the dance studio, and anxiously awaiting the start of recital choreography!
Lyla is learning so much these days! She is also becoming very compassionate. She knew I was dealing with a lot after the loss, and was always there with a hug, kiss, or a hand squeeze. In fact, her newest thing is finding me wherever I am and saying, “Hey Mom! I love you!”
Jazz is walking now. He loves music and dancing. Of course, he is also a big fan of good food! Let me tell you, this boy can eat too!
Enjoy your holidays! I’m off to open up presents with these two kiddos!
Oct
01
Mr. Man Turns 1!!!
Today is Jazz’s birthday. My baby boy is growing up folks. I can’t believe how incredibly fast this year has gone by. Yet, even with it blowing by so many memories have been amassed. Rolling, sitting, crawling, and even saying sister’s name before mama. This little guy has grown in our hearts even if he is still a little peanut on the outside. I love him more and more everyday! Can’t wait to see what the next year brings us.
Yesterday, we celebrated our little mana with a small party with a few of his favorite things.
A big batch of homemade spaghetti. We will be eating this all week.
A banner made by mom and Lyla. Hung with a little help from dad and three different steps stools.
The balloons Lyla and I stuffed with stars were a big hit!
Lyla helped him unwrap a few presents.
All in all, I think he had a fantastic party! Simple and sweet is never wrong.
Sep
18
Always Loved
Today, is the three year anniversary of the loss of my second pregnancy. I wasn’t super far along, but the loss still affected Nate and I like a punch to the throat. We had already become attached to the little guy, and couldn’t wait to welcome him into the world with arms wide open. I haven’t talked much about this loss, because, the process of even just physically getting over the miscarriage took FOREVER. I was constantly reminded day after day that instead of feeling kicks and punches from a baby I already loved I was still struggling to get back to normal and base 0, so we could try again. After a few months, and still not being past the physical aspect of the loss I wasn’t even sure I would want to or could try again.
Michael Buble’s song, I Just Haven’t Met You Yet may not have been written about such a loss, but every time I hear it I smile and almost start to cry. I may have had to say goodbye to my baby before even saying hello, but I will always remember the feeling of excitement when I found out I was pregnant. The joy that Nate and I shared, before the pain we felt when ripped apart all too soon. Love you kid!
I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility
And I know someday that it’ll all turn out
You’ll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven’t met you yet
I might have to wait, I’ll never give up
I guess it’s half timing, and the other half’s luck
Wherever you are, whenever it’s right
You’ll come out of nowhere and into my life
And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility
And somehow I know that it’ll all turn out
You’ll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven’t met you yet
Today, I bring you fun-size snaps of our trip to Lincoln Children’s Museum.
Jazz LOVES to watch Lyla play.
Nate was the good daddy and helped Lyla play in the indoor plumbing project part. I must say, the water exhibit is not nearly as cool as it was before they re did it.
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